Butterfly
Torus
Butterfly
Torus
human toroidal field 🦋
Having just gone through this phase, gonna start with death/migration/overwintering/dark night of the soul. Winter. The Tower tarot card?
Loss. Shaking up. Forced to move/change. Chaos. Depression. Mental health issues. Heartbreak. Breaking things apart in order to put back together stronger and better. Exposing what wasn't working so necessary changes can be made. the micro tears that build muscle. Controlled burns. The ending of a phase and the beginning of something new. Monarchs travel for up to 2 months to migrate to warmer areas. They overwinter in Mexico from October to late March. This is a long, but necessary process for growth and survival.
Winter so there can be spring. 🌱
This phase doesn't necessarily mean isolation. I think to isolate during this phase decreases your chances of survival. This phase is best done with other people involved. Travel in packs. Congregate.
The desire to begin again happens. Stillness. Ideas begin to form. Inspiration. Starting something new. Starting again with absolutely nothing. Cultivation. Kinda exciting though. Ace tarot cards?
I guess the previous phases can be considered part of the initiation process, but this is where you really begin. Time to eat and grow. You are thrown into transformation and you are alone. Survival time. You start to try new things and see what sticks. Integrating new habits and the ideas you had during egg time. You are hungry and nothing will stop you from EATING. Page cards. Knight cards. Page in beginning of caterpillar and knights as you get bigger and bolder.
Reading. Podcasts. Meditating. Becoming curious. Watching what others do. Practicing. Confidence building. Feeling unstoppable. Cockiness?
The caterpillar must give up his form in order to become a butterfly. It cannot be a butterfly and also a caterpillar.
You've eaten and learned and now it's time to sit with yourself in a disciplined manner and build. Work with the tools you've gathered. Transform internally. Protective barrier (chrysalis) so your insides can turn to goo. Dissolve all that wasn't working. Locate and erase the outdated patterns. Dissolve old self. Dissolve ego. Meditations. Psychedelic vibes. Retreat. Silence. Rebuild. Form a connection with source/the universe. Trust. Faith. Let go. Surrender to the process. The fucking process. "Website under construction"
"trust the process".
the process:
The Hanged man, Queen of Cups (connect conscious to unconscious, use imagination to build future, all driven by love), The Hermit.
Practicing being seeeeeen.
This is the phase I am in right now. Kind of an awkward phase. Very vulnerable. The chrysalis goes completely see through and then you emerge. Like a baby deer. Your wings are wrinkly. There is red icky goo dripping called meconium. It is the leftover coloring from the wing formation, along with the unneeded tissues of the caterpillar. Kinda like menstrual phase.
People are watching and can see you. They can see your wrinkles and your new shape and your fucking red goo that you swear isn't blood but nobody believes you. You are now a butterfly, but you've never been a butterfly before so it sucks a little. You feel naked. People are PERCEIVING YOU. You think they can tell that you were just a puddle of goo in a sack. You want nothing more than to go back into goo mode and be hidden. You think "maybe I should just forget about everything I've learned and go back to what is known and comfortable"
Insecurities start arising. You got what you worked/asked for and now you gotta deal with being this new and BETTER version of you. Responsibility. Everyone around you still looks the same. Just ants and dogs and grass. They didn't go through such a drastic and OBVIOUS change as you did, so you feel out of place. Too big. Too much. You are hard to miss now. But you cannot go back and you cannot shrink. You are a butterfly now. Integrate what you've learned in isolation and stay confident.. This is combining the inner world/spirituality with the outer world/"reality"
You question your ideas because they are new and different and original. Vulnerable to others opinions. Maybe 4 of Pentacles? 4 of cups. Desire to close off and hide self. Not seeing the GIFT you've been given. Focused on the past and what is comfortable. Comparison. I feel like this is the phase that can make you lose all progress. This is where you have to push through. It's like the test phase. Almost to the finish line. Last push. If not you are left with crinkled wings
9 of pentacles once you've gotten past that shit. Then it is certainty in knowing one has made the right choices and followed them with the necessary actions. Success in creating ourselves out of the material given us bye the circumstances and conditions of our life. The ability to KNOW where others can only guess. In order to achieve what you have, you have had to give up normal things. Compromise and choices. standing by them.
Rebirth. Self-explanatory. 10 of cups?
Confident. Sharing your ideas with others. Helping others. Creative. Love frequency. Full integration. Inspiring others. Presence. BEING FUCKING PRESENT. Content. Accomplishment. People watch you and go "oh shit" and you let them watch. LETTING YOURSELF BE SEEN. Comfortable being seen. Deeper relationship with and understanding of source/the universe. Purpose. Healthy. Bravery. Intuitive. Wise. Knowledgable. Teacher. Loving. King cards. Queen cards. Life experience. +++ XP! Level up. Maturity. Beauty. Experiencing life for all its wonders and beauty. Can see bigger picture now. Strength. Resilience. Survival.
AWARENESS OF THE CYCLE OF LIFE. THE LAWS OF NATURE. Everything plays out in a cycle. Over and over and over. Accepting the cycles. Flowing with them. Staying grounded so the cycles don't ruin you. Working with nature and the universe. Not a victim. Creator of your own destiny. In control. Emotional control. Guided by love. One with all. Not othering yourself. Rising above. Good shit. Oh, GRATITUDE. Big time gratitude.
The Empress <3. King of swords.
Then migration will happen, but it will be cool because you have the tools now and you've done it before and you survived. And you have friends. And you have goo mode to look forward to.
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